Monday Morning says to me,
That I'm not quite where I'm supposed to be.

Last night I had some particularly memorable dreams as I tend to do. Whats worth mentioning is not really in the details but rather the emotions which filled me shortly after waking. It's actually quite interesting because that's usually how the feelings come with dreams; they come after actually waking. While it's happening its totally lucid and sublime.

Anyways, the feelings were kind of a longing for something else. Not necessarily a depressive feeling about my current situation but just a knowing that something isn't quite right. There feels like there is potential that can only be fulfilled elsewhere. The people I find myself able to relate to continues to dwindle. While there's a good chance this is also partially a part of growing up, something tells me that it's not the whole story. It feels like there is a lack of community. At least the type of community I can relate to.

There have been a number of groups I've been associated with during my time here at my present location. They come and they go. There just seems like there's not enough people here to continue something to grow. The most recent example of this was this past weekend at a friends party. It's not really a party but rather a gathering of friends. It's something with much more intent than deciding to go and picking up a six pack on the way over. Well no one showed up really. There was just a few of us, a lot which was family.

So that just added to the theme of today's thought. Whatever I'm looking for must not be here. There are greener pastures ahead and it may be time to look elsewhere.